
So I've been having this nightmare recently. I think that I've dreamed it maybe once, but I think about it a few times a day and prior to sleeping.
I am standing in a grassy clearing. Its in the middle of a forest and the nearest trees are about thirty yards ahead of me. Already misty and drizzleing, I become aware that there is thunder and I sense the flash of lightning. Then I run for the trees but they get no closer. I gain no ground even as I trudge through the mud to get there as the grass loses root in the ground becomeing ever more liquid. And the lightning bolts, and it bolts. Over and over. Like a giant poker striking out of a blakened heaven. I run and run but never get to the safety of the trees.
Maybe the field and my position there is a symbol of my vulnerability. The boltz of lightning are my threats. The trees and the forest is a sense of shelter because logicaly I know that if I am in the woods the likelihood of a tree that is taller than I of being shocked by lightning is greater than hitting me. But in the field the lightning is in the catbird seat.
So what am I afraid of? Pleanty!


